The Gift of Awe – A Letter to Self

Dedicated to My Sisters – Vicki & Sandy
(Originally Written January 2015)

“A Letter to Myself”

My thoughts are wandering back in time today – it’s been almost 10 years since both our sisters left their earthly physical form.  As I write to you Dearest Debbie, I notice with a sense of absolute wonder and awe how different “remembering” within the actual moments of the past is compared to “re-remembering ” those moments. Every experience in the “now” contains the beauty and heartbreak of a time when we could still physically touch and tightly hug our two sisters.

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Dedicated To My Sisters

Oh lovely self, our spirituality and faith were certainly tested – our sanity probably more than those two put together ten-fold.  In spite of our losses, we stand stronger than ever because we now know we never truly lost them at all.

Stepping back in time, I’m remembering our sister Vicki’s last days.  You and I watched her pain and admired the unlimited amount of love and compassion she expressed to those she knew would be left behind.  Her daughters, her grandchildren, her sisters and friends. You remember how we felt as we watched her slowly slip away – the devastation of loss was blended together with the joy of having her finally released from pain.  It was like a cyclone of the good, the bad, and the ugly. But looking back, I also see the beauty of her illness; the true gifts we were given.  We were with her when she slipped way.  A gift we couldn’t see at the time, but none the less that gift of being with her now lives in our heart and soul.  A sacred lesson she shared with us was to never become a victim of her death or life’s experiences.  She taught us that letting her go would set her spirit free and that we would always have her within our memories and dreams.

It was tough working through the grief wasn’t it?  Little did we know another horror was lurking in the dark.  About one month after Vicki’s passing, our second sister Sandy was diagnosed with terminal cancer. During those next few months, we watched as she also fought so hard to live and win a battle that could not be won.  Sister Sandy, again, was a shining example of keeping a smile on her face to strengthen her husband, daughters, son, sister and grandchild for what they would soon face.  I so clearly remember her being silly, goofy, funny and sassy until those very last moments when she quietly passed away.  Our last sister slipped 12250775_saway in a cradle of immense love – she left her love behind for each of us.

This time the best lesson was “It’s good to be numb”.  We were protected for a bit. The pain was so intense, and feeling numb helped us feel cozy and safe in our fuzzy blanket of intentionally blocked feelings. Gifts can sometimes be dualistic. Without dualism, we would never know the difference between darkness and light. Between horror and happy.  “Numb” was great compared to feel anything at that time.  We needed safe – we needed time to build energy to even begin the grief process.  We put ourselves away and hid in solitude to heal. That was perfectly fine – it was our way.

I’m thankful for all life’s teachings but damn, another crisis struck when we consciously became aware that we were now orphans.  Both parents gone. Both siblings gone.  “We” had become an “I”.   To heal we had to walk through hell, feel the intense fiery heat of rage, and move beyond it all to come out the other side as a whole human being that no longer needed to be numb.  
The gift: we learned we are not alone – we never actually are.

Engelmann_Poster_Horiz_webWe rock Dearest Debbie.  We learned to stop living as a victim, we stood up and faced adversity, we dug deep and found the beauty and began to become our authentic self.  We took the intense loneliness and re-purposed that power to help us bravely begin walking down the healing path – on wobbly feet.  We began to grow and slowly push through the numbness so we could feel; maybe for the first time?  Our sisters spirits became the wind, the water, the air, the wood and fire that helped us bloom into the amazing person we now are.

We stand tall and proud today.  We help teach others how to break away from the vicious life-strangling bonds of “being” a victim, how to find balance in health and well-being.  We teach hope. We are blessed every single day. Why?  Because we know each person we encounter are in reality both our students and teachers – which means Dear Debbie, we are always a student and a teacher as well.

I love you “self”.  Maybe knowing that is the biggest lesson learned through these past years.  Authentic love and acceptance of self does in fact free the soul.  Thankfully, the beautiful spirits of our sisters Vicki and Sandy continue to soar with us and help guide us as we continue along our own path to reach beyond the stars – the gateway to all wonders.   My love continues to be with you Vicki and Sandy – and with you as well Dearest Debbie.20212568_l

 

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“Heart to Heart: The Path to Wellness”, a book in which I am a contributing author, contains the stories of 43 amazing authors who have each shared their personal and inspirational true-life story of healing.  I invite each of you, right now, to consider joining me in a campaign to get this book into the hands of the people who really need a gift of hopethe victims of domestic abuse.

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Created By Nature Wellness, LLC, is making a matching book donation to a domestic abuse safe house/shelter in the Minneapolis/St. Paul area for each “Heart to Heart” book ordered. The minimum goal is 100 books. These books belong in the hands of the people who need “stories of hope” during their personally desperate times. Why is the book so important? Because everything in their life was lost or taken away from them when they had to flee to a safe place.Think of that for a moment – they HAD to find safety. It may have been a choice of life and death for them.

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Please help get as many books as possible to the victims of domestic abuse.  If just one of the forty-three stories in the “Heart to Heart” book helps a single victim of domestic abuse, we helped someone realize there is enough hope to begin taking tiny steps on the path out of the horror.  We can help save a soul – possibly a life.

In addition, beginning today, Friday, March 13, 2015, Created By Nature Wellness, LLC, will also donate $1 for each “Heart to Heart:The Path to Wellness” book ordered to the domestic shelter. This will continue through April 13, 2015 – 30 days of focusing on helping someone who does not exist in the assumed everyday condition called “safety”. Simply click the picture on the left and you will be taken directly to the “Books By Debbie Engelmann” order site.  At checkout, enter the Discount Code “SAFETY” which will give YOU 15% off “Heart to Heart: The Path to Wellness”.  My gift to you for helping someone in need.

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I invite everyone to email me with comments and/or thoughts on not only the book, but how it feels to be involved in helping others who need support and kindness in difficult situations.  Simply click “Contact Debbie” on the ordering site.

Essential Wellness.com “Heart to Heart” Book Release Article

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Dr. Debbie Engelmann, NHD, owner of Created By Nature Wellness, LLC, is a featured author in “Heart to Heart: The Path to Wellness”, a book created by Älska Publishing and officially released worldwide February 26, 2015.  In her chapter, “Falling Into The Garden of Healing”, Debbie shares the details of her two-year fight to find her way back from the darkness of grief, deep depression, despair, and overwhelming anger following the devastating loss of both sisters, just five months apart.  She is one of 43 amazing authors, including the well-known creators of the bestselling book, “The Secret”, Dr. John Demartini and Bob Doyle, who also share their personal and inspirational true-life story of healing.

Every individual, at some point in time, has asked themselves, “How can I get through this? Why is this happening to me? Am I even strong enough to work through this?”  Questions you may be asking yourself daily or even every moment.  The good news is this; you already have the ability within you to have a life full of vibrant health and abundance.  The stories in this book will help jump-start your personal healing plan whether you’re facing an illness, nursing a broken heart, battling demons from the past, or simply wish to begin living a brighter and healthier life.

Debbie’s story shares her difficult and painful process of not only processing her grief, but how debilitating it was to finally lose control in order to heal.  Her chapter shares the following about the path she walked during her healing:

“During my healing process, I learned to focus completely on myself, began to cautiously face the truth of me, and slowly released myself from my self-imposed cage of fear. The time estimates of others regarding how long I should grieve were finally ignored. By allowing myself to lose control, I began to stop controlling not only myself, but others. I screamed, hit pillows, wrote pages and pages of memories, hatred, sadness, and unspeakable things and when I was finally spent, it was upon Mother Earth I fell to surrender my grief and pain.”

Patricia Jerde, Artist shares the following review:

“Debbie Engelmann’s chapter “Falling Into The Garden of Healing” so beautifully describes the process she had to go through to heal herself.  The path she found to that place of healing within herself is revealed with beautiful and powerful imagery.  That path has led her to the peace and strength she now uses to help others heal.  Knowing Debbie is a gift, and her story simply reinforces the wisdom she has found on her healing journey.  I am so thankful she has shared her path with us in this book, which invites all of us to start the voyage of our own healing.”

The message and magic in this book is deep. It stirs the soul, illuminates the path toward healing and shows the reader that anything is possible.

Order your copy today at http://dengelmannauthor.com.  Save 10% by using coupon code SAVE10 at checkout.

 

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News Brief: Twin Cities Natural Awakenings – February 2015 – Twin Cities – Book Release

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Falling Into the Garden of Healing

Debbie Engelmann

Debbie Engelmann, Doctor of Natural Health and owner of Created by Nature Wellness, LLC, in Burnsville, is a contributing author of the bestselling Heart to Heart: The Path to Wellness book, created by Älska Publishing.

Engelmann’s chapter, “Falling Into The Garden of Healing,” is the story of her plunge into deep depression and anger following the deaths of both her sisters months apart. By allowing herself to lose control, she grew from her personal grief and found her way back to wellness to become a healer herself. Engelmann shares, on a daily basis, her focus is on “ways to help others learn how to solve the greatest mystery of all—ways to love self in order to heal self.”

Writing the contributing chapter helped her not only affirm the events of her own healing, but also to recognize how fulfilling getting the message out to the world that we can all heal has become.

“We are all very diverse in how we heal, and the healing stories of how others heal themselves teach everyone that healing can happen—even to them,” says Engelmann.

The Heart to Heart book series features a collection of inspirational stories from some of the world’s most influential teachers in the field of personal development as well as contributions from self-help veterans and New York Times bestselling authors. Älska Publishing has experienced bestselling paperback sales despite the dire state of the current book market. With the closure of many of the large retail book stores, Älska has launched over 75,000 copies of their range of book series, with contributing authors spanning over 30 countries.

For more information visit DEngelmannAuthor.com or CreatedByNatureWellness.com.

Link:  Falling Into the Garden of Healing – Twin Cities Natural Awakenings – February 2015 – Twin Cities.