The Gift of Awe – A Letter to Self

Dedicated to My Sisters – Vicki & Sandy
(Originally Written January 2015)

“A Letter to Myself”

My thoughts are wandering back in time today – it’s been almost 10 years since both our sisters left their earthly physical form.  As I write to you Dearest Debbie, I notice with a sense of absolute wonder and awe how different “remembering” within the actual moments of the past is compared to “re-remembering ” those moments. Every experience in the “now” contains the beauty and heartbreak of a time when we could still physically touch and tightly hug our two sisters.

Dedicated To My Sisters
Dedicated To My Sisters

Oh lovely self, our spirituality and faith were certainly tested – our sanity probably more than those two put together ten-fold.  In spite of our losses, we stand stronger than ever because we now know we never truly lost them at all.

Stepping back in time, I’m remembering our sister Vicki’s last days.  You and I watched her pain and admired the unlimited amount of love and compassion she expressed to those she knew would be left behind.  Her daughters, her grandchildren, her sisters and friends. You remember how we felt as we watched her slowly slip away – the devastation of loss was blended together with the joy of having her finally released from pain.  It was like a cyclone of the good, the bad, and the ugly. But looking back, I also see the beauty of her illness; the true gifts we were given.  We were with her when she slipped way.  A gift we couldn’t see at the time, but none the less that gift of being with her now lives in our heart and soul.  A sacred lesson she shared with us was to never become a victim of her death or life’s experiences.  She taught us that letting her go would set her spirit free and that we would always have her within our memories and dreams.

It was tough working through the grief wasn’t it?  Little did we know another horror was lurking in the dark.  About one month after Vicki’s passing, our second sister Sandy was diagnosed with terminal cancer. During those next few months, we watched as she also fought so hard to live and win a battle that could not be won.  Sister Sandy, again, was a shining example of keeping a smile on her face to strengthen her husband, daughters, son, sister and grandchild for what they would soon face.  I so clearly remember her being silly, goofy, funny and sassy until those very last moments when she quietly passed away.  Our last sister slipped 12250775_saway in a cradle of immense love – she left her love behind for each of us.

This time the best lesson was “It’s good to be numb”.  We were protected for a bit. The pain was so intense, and feeling numb helped us feel cozy and safe in our fuzzy blanket of intentionally blocked feelings. Gifts can sometimes be dualistic. Without dualism, we would never know the difference between darkness and light. Between horror and happy.  “Numb” was great compared to feel anything at that time.  We needed safe – we needed time to build energy to even begin the grief process.  We put ourselves away and hid in solitude to heal. That was perfectly fine – it was our way.

I’m thankful for all life’s teachings but damn, another crisis struck when we consciously became aware that we were now orphans.  Both parents gone. Both siblings gone.  “We” had become an “I”.   To heal we had to walk through hell, feel the intense fiery heat of rage, and move beyond it all to come out the other side as a whole human being that no longer needed to be numb.  
The gift: we learned we are not alone – we never actually are.

Engelmann_Poster_Horiz_webWe rock Dearest Debbie.  We learned to stop living as a victim, we stood up and faced adversity, we dug deep and found the beauty and began to become our authentic self.  We took the intense loneliness and re-purposed that power to help us bravely begin walking down the healing path – on wobbly feet.  We began to grow and slowly push through the numbness so we could feel; maybe for the first time?  Our sisters spirits became the wind, the water, the air, the wood and fire that helped us bloom into the amazing person we now are.

We stand tall and proud today.  We help teach others how to break away from the vicious life-strangling bonds of “being” a victim, how to find balance in health and well-being.  We teach hope. We are blessed every single day. Why?  Because we know each person we encounter are in reality both our students and teachers – which means Dear Debbie, we are always a student and a teacher as well.

I love you “self”.  Maybe knowing that is the biggest lesson learned through these past years.  Authentic love and acceptance of self does in fact free the soul.  Thankfully, the beautiful spirits of our sisters Vicki and Sandy continue to soar with us and help guide us as we continue along our own path to reach beyond the stars – the gateway to all wonders.   My love continues to be with you Vicki and Sandy – and with you as well Dearest Debbie.20212568_l

 

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This inspiring interview with Dr.Debbie Engelmann, a doctor of Naturopathy and Herbal Healing, reminds us of our divine ability to heal naturally and recover from trauma and abuse with grace. Dr Deb’s story, Falling into the Garden of Healing, appears alongside Dr. Andrea’s story with 40+ other amazing authors in the new book“Heart to Heart: The Path to Wellness.”

Having experienced abuse and devastating loss in many forms, Debbie never lost hope, nor her innocence. Her love of Nature and all things natural allowed her to uncover her healing gifts and share them with her patients and now the world!

In the book Debbie talks about the death of her two sisters, Vicki and Sandy, who died months apart. Her journey through the darkest hours of her life eventually led to healing of mind, body and spirit. She shares how she pulled herself out of the depression and devastation and found her true self.

Listen in as Deb discusses how abuse in her childhood and the tragic loss of both of her sisters revealed how her hidden emotions led to her sickness yet ultimately awakened her ability to heal — naturally. Deb’s story will speak to your heart and inspire you to go beyond your pain to find your own garden of healing  through alternative remedies and techniques.

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Dr. Deb’s story, Falling into the Garden of Healing, appears alongside Dr. Andrea’s story with 40+ other amazing authors in the new book Heart to Heart: The Path to Wellness“.

Having experienced abuse and devastating loss in many forms, Debbie never lost hope, nor her innocence. Her love of Nature and all things natural allowed her to uncover her healing gifts and share them with her patients and now the world!

In the book, Debbie talks about the death of her two sisters, Vicki and Sandy, who died months apart. Her journey through the darkest hours of her life eventually led to healing of mind, body and spirit. She shares how she pulled herself out of the depression and devastation and found her true self.  Listen in as Deb discusses how abuse in her childhood and the tragic loss of both of her sisters revealed how her hidden emotions led to her sickness, yet ultimately awakened her ability to heal – – naturally.  Deb’s story will speak to your heart and inspire you to go beyond your pain to find your own Garden of Healing through alternative remedies and therapies.

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DEBBIE ENGELMANN IS CONTRIBUTING AUTHOR IN NEW HEART TO HEART BOOK SERIES

Authors “Falling Into the Garden of Healing” Chapter

Debbie Engelmann, Doctor of Natural Health and owner of Created By Nature Wellness, LLC based in Burnsville, Minnesota, is a contributing author in the bestselling “Heart to Heart: The Path to Wellness” book created by Älska Publishing.   Debbie’s chapter, Falling Into the Garden of Healing”, is the story of her plunge into deep depression magnified by anger following the deaths of both sisters months apart. By allowing herself to lose control, she grew from her personal grief and found her way back to wellness to become a healer herself.  Debbie shares that on a daily basis, her focus is on, “Ways to help others learn how to solve the greatest mystery of all – ways to love self in order to heal self”.   Writing her contribution chapter helped her clarify not only the events of her own healing, but how fulfilling and rewarding getting the message “we can all heal” out to the world has become.  We are all very diverse in how we heal, and the healing stories of how others heal themselves teaches everyone that healing can happen – even to them.

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“Debbie Engelmann’s chapter “Falling Into the Garden of Healing” so beautifully describes the process she had to go through to heal herself. The path she found to that place of healing within herself is revealed with beautiful and powerful imagery. That path led her to the peace and strength she found in helping others heal. Knowing Debbie is a gift, and her story simply reinforces the wisdom she has found on her journey. I am so thankful she has shared her path with us in this book, which invites all of us to start the voyage of our own healing.”

The Heart to Heart book series features a collection of inspirational stories from some of the world’s most influential teachers in the field of personal development as well as contributions from self-help veterans and New York Times bestselling authors.  Älska Publishing has experienced bestselling paperback sales despite the dire state of the current book market. With the closure of many of the large retail book stores, Älska Publishing has launched over 75,000 copies of their range of book series, with contributing authors spanning over 30 countries.

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